Four outstanding authors in their most recent books, Paul Beatty, The Sellout, Patrick Phillips, Blood at the Root, Colson Whitehead, The Underground Railroad, and Paul Theroux, Deep South, have compelled their readers to ponder the moral dimensions of their own lives in the context of the matter of race in the US.  Each in his own way has forced this retired teacher-historian to ponder the choices he made, the actions he took, the work that he did, and the risks that he took when faced with this most fundamental contradiction in our national experience.  Were the choices wise, the actions prudent, the energy and costs worthwhile?  Finally, what else might he have done?  What now?